I got married for the first time last year at the age of 39. It as the best day of my life, but nothing really prepared me for what was ahead. These are my thoughts and experiences.
I am a country girl. Born and raised in Oklahoma. I do love many aspects about the life I have here. But often, I felt like a fish out of water. I am very different from most of the country girls I grew up with and around. I didn't get my MRS degree right out of high school, I have no children (not sure I ever wanted them), wanted a career, and wanted to make positive difference in the world. My life and former career moved me the states of Kansas and Texas. I am a woman of faith. Although, lately the stress and struggles of my life, and the way that things are heading in this country, make me very unsure of those things that I once held so dear....and thought others did as well....I guess you could say that I am having difficult time reconciling my faith with the world and what others are telling and showing me.
I got married for the first time at the age of 39 last year, (which also makes me a bit of an odd duck here in Oklahoma). Our marriage has been very rocky and tumultuous to say the least. I am also working on navigating through our new life, health issues that we are both dealing with, money (isn't that always the case), graduate school for me, learning new career, and family. I try to go through this life with love, humor, and caring. I am ashamed to say that I have let things/people get to me, and am working to deal with the mistakes I have made in the past, learn from them, forgive, and move on.
I wanted to start a blog to hopefully connect with more people like me. People that live in areas that maybe they feel different, out of place, or have worked their way through similar issue that I am facing. Or maybe I could of help to someone else. Some times, it does help to get your mind of your own problems to be there for another. I am not here for judgement or to be ridiculed. I get that enough. I am just looking to find kindness and friendship during a very tough time in my life. I know I am not a Mommy blogger, a Crafter, Fashionista, or 100% obsessed with my career, I do dabble in crafts, love fashion, and have considered adoption. I hope I will welcome here, but it will okay if I am not. Not fitting in is usual for me, but wanted to give this a try. :)